When nothing's enough

What do you do, when you've done everything you could think of, and yet you are lacking?

How do you make them see that you weren't the same person you were when you messed up so badly 2 years ago?

How do you make them see?

There are three possibilities. If I'm a well adjusted, mature, non-messed up person, I'll be fine when I'm let off the leash. If I'm like everybody else, one of two things will happen. I'll either go completely berserk, like before (exactly what he's afraid of), or, I'll be like those prisoners who don't leave their cell even once the door have been left open. Conditioning, I think is what it's called.

Who knows what will happen?

And I'm so frightened that it'll be the last option. I don't want to turn into one of those people who have been broken. I don't. I think I'm halfway there.