Sometimes things seem to happen for a reason. I thought that maybe she could have helped with a bit of the confusion in my head. It turns out she's more confused than me... At least in my case I haven't got myself into a situation that leaves me suspended between to life styles.

I thought that maybe it wouldn't be such a big deal to be with someone of another faith and culture. But it seems that no matter what, that difference in faith, and what that implies in terms of life styles, means that it is rather difficult to reconcile the two unless you are willing to let go of some of your beliefs.

I suppose, maybe I am playing at being something, or maybe just figuring it out. But I think I have figured out where I draw the line. And unfortunately, that does mean that the guy I can't seem to get out of my head, is in fact not someone I can be with.

My mother left yesterday after a 2 month stay with me and my sister. Maybe I'm just being sentimental, but it seems that she picks up on things I don't even talk about. Based on what she said, I could choose her or a non-muslim man. I think that simplyfies the choice greatly. I also suppose that given time I will actually move on. Maybe someday soon, I won't have to conciously stop myself from messeging him or thinking about him. Maybe one of these days, I reallise I haven't spoken to him or thought of him for days. One can hope.